this is what i feel sometimes when i'm alone

hidup jenis ape yg aq nk idup kt dunie ni ? aq xpasti .. aq bosan idop kekdg , seyesly , tp aq sendri xsggup nk pergi dr idop aq ni ..

P/S : pic bukan aq nye , credit to owner of this pic ye :)

haa ... warne warni alam pekerjaan

haaa .. alam pekerjaan , alam yg maybe ramai kot org tetunggu cuz dapat kumpul wet n stuff .. heh .. cuti 4 bulan ni , stelah membuat tahi mate kt rumah je , aq amek la keje skejap dkat fast food dkt umah aku ..

takot jgk sbenanye keje sane , & lepas da masuk keje for a few days , bk mende yg aq leh agak2 tyme aq keje btol2 nant ...

1st , kerja itu berat utk mengumpul duet ... susah rupenye nk kumpul duet .. bese tgk mak bapak kite je keje n kmpul duet , skang aq tau mcmana perit nye nak tunggu paycheck .. demm

2nd , pengampu .. haha .. golongon paling aq fuck skali kt dunie ni .. ye , kau lah penjilat bontot anjing wahai pengampu , kau xlayak nak komen aq , aq tau aq baru , dats y aq belajar dr kesilapan aq , xperlu ko nk mengata aq , ad aq kesah ? bukan kau yg bayar gaji aq tp owner fast food restaurant 2 yg bayar ye ! ingat 2 BAB* ..

3rd , rank dlm organisasi , penting rupenye haram jadah ni .. dlm sesuatu organisasi , rank 2 penting , kalau ko da lame n rank tnggi , ramai org nk dekat , nk ampu n sanggup wat pe je asalkan dpt ad dlam radius penjagaan si dia yg ade rank tinggi dlm organisasi .. f*ck .. ohh yeah .. umur pn penting , umur ko muda , diorg pandang leweh n seblah mate je .. haha

4th , kt dunia ni ad mcm2 jenis org .. baik buruk , hensem lawa , prangai ok prangai cam cibai .. haha

5th , aq cume keje tok isi mase kosong time cuti , bukan tok naekkn rank aq dlm organisasi 2 ye .. thank you :) aq bosan berhadapan dgn pngampu , org bajet baik & org yg bermuke ... korg mmg cam syall

tu je la kot ? haa .. da nk masuk keje , bek aq siap2 .. xpasal2 punch card lambat pastu aq org omplain kt manager .. babi kau org ... aq xkejar rank n gaji cam korg babi! heee

P/S : working at a fast food restaurant is hectic n boring .. seriously

f*ck you!

haa.... fck it .. exams results are in & i failed in statistics .. bhahhaha

aq da agak dah , bengang gile kot subjek ni.. mcm gampang .. fck , & the best thing is that even my friends are selfish .. thanx .. i love u guys for not helping me , THANX .. xpe2 , at least aq da tau sape yg ptot aq tlg n sape yg xptot aq tlg .. heh

so , skang ni , statistics , the only subject that i have to repeat & hopefully there wont be any other subjects that i have to in the future ..

p/s: lagu mood skang ni : Lily Allen - Fuck You , lagu Cee Lo Green - Fuck You xbest .. haha .. lgpn Lily cute .. hahaha .. fck!

saye da xkesah

ermmm ... mayb for the past 3 days , ive been someone else , mayb im just bored , mayb i dun care anymore .. baahhh , yg ptg if everything that i planned fail , aq da xkesah .. seyesly , smue org brubah , tp xsmue yg leh merendah diri n minx maaf ... heh , im done with asking for apologies .. :)

btw , aq layan kot minah ni skang .. bhahahahha

yup2 .. sape lg kalo bukan minah G6 , wee .. syok2,stakt ni aq dl tracks2 die , oke lah , not bad cuz bunyi synthesizer n effects die mmg kewl .. gege .. layan lagu die monster n killer .. best kot :)

i'm not perfect .. stop expecting the best out of me!

i'm tired of people's expectation towards me ..

i'm not perfect , i wont be perfect , i make mistakes , i wont be stereotyped , i love falling , i love getting back up , i love getting hurt , i love hoping for a better future , i love being alone , i love being hated for who i really am rather than putting a fake mask just to get along with others ..

i wont be like you or any other person you'll ever knew .. i love myself .. thank you

cuti yg mem****kan

cuti harini sangat membosankan ..

ari2 sembunyi dalam blanket .. perlu kerja .. damn!

doa :)

Apabila menghadapi sebarang masalah , mohonlah pada Allah swt. keringanan dengan membaca doa berikut :

اللَّهُمَّ لا سَهلَ إِلاَّ مَا جَعَلْتَهُ سَهْلاً ، وَ أَنْتَ تَجْعَلُ الْحُزْنَ إِذَا شِئْتَ سَهْلاً
Allahumma la sahla illa ma ja'altahu sahla wa anta taj'alul hAzna iza syi'ta sahla

...Maksudnya : “ Wahai Tuhanku , tiada kemudahan melainkan apa yang Engkau jadikanmudah dan perkara yang susah boleh Engkau jadikan mudah , apabila Engkau mengkehendakinya” .

DUA BEFORE STUDYING

Allahumma infa’nii bimaa ‘allamtanii wa’allimnii maa yanfa’ unii. Allahumma inii as’aluka fahmal-nabiyyen wa hifthal mursaleen al-muqarrabeen. Allahumma ijal leesanee ‘amiran bi thikrika wa qalbi bi khashyatika. Innaka ‘ala ma-tasha’-u qadeer wa anta hasbun-allahu wa na’mal wakeel.

Oh Allah! Make useful for me what You taught me and teach me knowledge that will be useful to me. Oh Allah! I ask You for the understanding of the prophets and the memory of the messengers, and those nearest to You. Oh Allah! Make my tongue full of Your remembrance, and my heart with consciousness of You. (Oh Allah!) You do whatever You wish, and You are my Availer and Protector and the best of aid.

DUA AFTER STUDYING

Allahhumma inni astaodeeuka ma qara’tu wama hafaz-tu. Faradduhu ‘allaya inda hagati elayhi. Innaka ‘ala ma-tasha’-u qadeer wa anta hasbeeya wa na’mal wakeel.

Oh Allah! I entrust -You with what I have read and I have studied. (Oh Allah!) Bring it back to me when I am in need of it. (Oh Allah!) You do whatever You wish, and You are my Availer and Protector and the best of aid.

DUA WHILE STUDYING SOMETHING DIFFICULT

Allahumma la sahla illama ja-’altahu sahla wa anta taj ‘alu al hazana etha shi’ta sahla

Oh Allah! Nothing is easy except what You have made easy. If You wish, You can make the difficult easy.

DUA FOR ANXIETY

Allahumma inni a’oodhoo bika minal-hammi-walhazan. Wa’a oodhoo bika minal-ghammi-wal-kasal. Wa’a oodoo bika minal jubni wal bukhl. Wa’a oodhoo bikal min ghalabatid-dayni-waqarir rijal.

Oh Allah, I seek refuge in You from worry and grief, from helplessness and laziness, from cowardice and stinginess, and from overpowering of debt and from oppression of men.

DUA FOR DISTRESS

Allahumma rahmataka arjoo falaa takilnee ilaa nafsee tarfata ‘aynin wa aslih-lee sha’nee kullahu, laa ilaha illa anta

O Allah! It is Your mercy that I hope for so do not leave me in charge of my affairs even for a blink of an eye and rectify for me all of my affairs. None has the right to be worshipped except You

P/S - ye , aq copy dr fb heliza helmi ? so , kebaikan tok korg & aku .. amin